As my 4th pregnancy is nearing the end I have bittersweet feelings. I can’t wait to meet and hold my little man or lady, and definitely I won’t miss having to pee 4 times a night or hearing my now pliable pelvic bones move and crunch when I try to pull myself out of bed in the morning. But, there’s so much I will miss.
I’m guessing this will be my final pregnancy and that brings tears to my eyes. I love being pregnant. It’s such a special time in a woman’s life. I love looking at my enormous baby belly and knowing that I am doing the most important job of my life… Making life. I’m a human incubator and it is such an honor. I also love feeling my baby kick and play and move inside of me. After doing this 3 times before it still amazes me. I pull up my top every time I feel movement and gaze in awe as my belly ripples back and forth, and I can see what appears to be small rolling mountains of little hands and feet travel across my stomach. I love never feeling alone and I love how everyone smiles at a pregnant woman no matter what mood they are in. I love how everyone calls me ‘mama’ and how my husband rubs my belly and tells me I’m the sexiest woman he’s ever seen. I also have so much fun dressing my baby bump. I usually opt for vintage and make it a mission to show myself and other preggers that you can totally look stylish at any point during pregnancy.
Like I said, I’m in love with pregnancy. Funny enough, if you had asked 21-year-old Tori if she would one day be the mama of 4, she probably would have laughed at you on her way out the door to go have whisky sours and dance at The Roxbury on Sunset with Shannen Doherty and Brian Austin Green. I mean… I always knew I wanted kids but I never could have predicted that I’d want such a large family and how much I would love being pregnant, and then taking care of and raising babes.
I live for my children. I beyond enjoy every single moment with them. I love the big moments like watching them talk and walk for the first time and even the small things like watching them discover their toes or hearing Liam say, “Mom, mom, mom” 50 times in a row. I even love when Stella says, “Mom I pooped”, and I walk into the bathroom to find her off the toilet, grasping her ankles with her naked butt in the air, awaiting a wipe.
I know all of these moments are fleeting. They won’t last forever. Just like my pregnancy. So I’m enjoying my last moments as a pregnant woman. I know very shortly it will be over and just a memory. I hope I can hang onto that amazing feeling I feel as an honored pregger and can remember forever the enjoyment I got out of it. Actually I know I’ll remember the enjoyment I got out of it as I watch my 4 beautiful babies grow into adults and have babies of their own. Yes, these moments can’t last forever, but the greatest part is that new moments with them will be created for the rest of our lives together. And where pregnancy is concerned, hopefully I WILL forget the dry nipples, constant heartburn, and constipation!
And since this will most likely be my last pregnancy, I wanted to dedicate the entire week on ediTORIal to blogs about pregnancy and being a mama. And to make sure that I never forget how I felt during this 4th pregnancy, my family and I are going to be filming some very special home videos for all of you guys documenting the final weeks before babe arrives! I’ll be posting these videos to ediTORIal, so stay tuned!
What’s your favorite thing about being pregger?